Foundational

I'm kind of lacking in solid ground right now. I don't have a home, a school, a family, old friends, familiar locations, a bus route I know. Whatever I held close and depended upon for consistency and solidity has been taken away or shaken apart.

That's when you start to question what your foundation is made of.

I know that I intentionally planned this out for myself to see how I would react. It was partly a matter of practicality and convenience, but it was also this desire to push myself past my comfort zone, and watch myself try to live.

I think that in situations where all the superficial aspects of your personality disappear, you can either delve deeper into yourself, or you can grasp more tightly onto God, or whatever your notion of a greater being is.

Repeatedly I'm being shown that I am a finite, exhaustible source of life, and that God, the living God, will provide more than I need in any circumstance. I want to believe that with my whole being, and I want to live a full life because of that.

This period of uncertainty is not going to be my last, but I can't complain. The lessons far outweigh the challenges.